After you been hurt so many times you turn numb to things i cant love any more I cant feel my soul its like when you sit on you foot fort long and it falls asleep and u cant feel it..it takes time..time heals all wounds..some leave scars.never rele gone just there to remind you of worse things yet to come.Now i have troubles sleeping thinking to much as for my emotions my tears hide be hind my eyes never wanting to show i want to laugh i have to force it...on the inside theres nothing but my never ending saddness pissed off regert...but after you where a mask so long it becomes a normal everyday thing.."going thro the motions with the sound turned down"..just flowing with life numb to the wind i use to not feel this way till i met "people" they come in diff forms Lairs cheaters backstabing stupid dumb animals..Without meeting these people i would be fine, a diff person then i am today i guess thats why i only have a few people i have as my actual friends i mean these people are very special to me i hope they know that i trust them with my life.i would name a"few"but u know who you are.any who

Ever hate it when you know everything...always being right...no? well i do i never been wrong about anything in my life i know what some one thinking,feeling about to do something, mostly with my love life tho it hurts to know there going to cheat on you leave you or latly in my case saying they love you and within a week go out with someone else.its that kind of bull shit that gets under your skin do you have no soul...you do..your just human thats with wrong with everyone "human"is a excuse to lie an do whatever the fuck you want..FUCK YOU..cant u be better then that rise above your "normal"...

(my neck hurts and i just cant think ne more about this ill wrtie more later..if any one even finds this to be a good read lol)